IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU GOD

It's has really been wonderful how God work in my life. During the 2 days Kairos, really can feel God presence with me. Kairos means in God's appointed time. During our first day, we are all seperated into 10 groups...Each group have to come up with their own games. I really learnt about how teamwork can really make things work and the potential of  a leader inside each and everyone of my group members. After each game we would be asked to decide which are the leaders, managers, and followers in the group. It is really amazing to see how important each of these 3 roles is. The leaders are so called the "heads" of the group, the managers being the "hands" of the group and the followers being the "strength" of the groups. Each category plays an important role. A group cannot work out consisting of only leaders. There would be no one doing the task. And a group cannot work consisting of only managers and followers as there would be no vision and focus on the task. As in 1 Corinthians 12:18 -26 we are all The Body of Christ. One is not greater than the other and if one part suffers, every part suffers with it and if one part is honored every part rejoices with it.

To be honest during the first time when i am approached to be in the committee for OCF adelaide, i am really shocked...I prayed and asked God why me, why chose me as there are people in OCF with much more potential than me. I am only a new christian, there are still so much for me to learn. I am not good in the bible, my studies aren't that good this semester, i worry not being able to do job well and all the other factors that push, me furthere away from accepting the role. I tink all the committee members really waited very long for my reply. I have been praying about it everyday and when i was praying one night, i felt like God is speaking to me and that He really wans me to accept the role. I just felt the worries, burden and troubles in my mind lifted from my shoulder. There is just a new confidence inside me that God will be there to guide and lead me to what He wans me to accomplish for Him. It is common among people just like me asking God why, why me? Instead we shoud praise God for all the blessing He had poured out for us. Luke 17: 11-19 One of them, when he saw that he was healed, returned, and with a loud voice glorified God. I still can remember how siew wai, danny and william shared with me that God give me this chance, this role for His purpose. Instead i should praise and thank God for how much i have grown being in the committee. I can really see the wonderful things He has been doing in my life. As leaders we will be more vulnerable to attack from satan. Sometimes i feel so worn out and tired that i feel completely lost and confused. But i can feel my faith for God growing from each incident. Prayer has become part of my life each time i face any problems. YES! Prayer is one of the best gifts from God and what's most wonderful is that it's free! Praise the Lord! The feeling of someone praying for you is just so wonderful and refreshing. I used to shy away and avoided praying for people. But now as i learn and grow, there is just a feeling of happiness inside me to be able to pray for any brothers, sisters, frens or anyone. Isn't it amazing how God work in our life. Just wana say a big THANK YOU to all the people who have been praying for me. Yes, drop me a msg or email if u need any prayer! I'll be most happy!

What does it really means to be disciples of God? Everyone can be christian. Life of a chrisitan can be just going to church once a year or once every month or not going at all. But being disciples, we are constantly serving the kingdom of God daily to bring glory to God, whether in church, outside or anywhere else. Each and everyone of us being christian should put in his/her effort to be disciples of God ya. In the world we are living in, the CEO of the company is always in the highest place, followed but the managers and then the employees. But in God's kingdom, the pyramid is the opposite direction. Like in OCF, the members are at the top of the pyramid followed by the leaders and then the Exco.

Here is a little thing i learn from Pastor Tim. We all have bad habits. No matter how hard we try to wash our bad habit there is still abit

HABIT  ----->  ABIT

We can try harder, there's still bit.

ABIT    ------> BIT

We try even harder, it is still there.

BIT     -------> IT

Only through Jesus who died on the cross  where we can wash away all our bad habit and sin.

IT        ------->    † (Jesus)

Really can feel how God touched each and everyone of our life in different ways during Kairos. One of the talks about "generation thinking" really makes me search deep within me. There is just an urge inside of me to step out of my comfort zone and reach out for the people who does not know Jesus yet. It's about a story about the first generation farmer who works so hard in the field and finally when it bears fruit, the 2nd generation are those who gain the most from the fruit. The first batch of hardworking farmer only gain some of the fruit. The 2nd generation sees how hard the first generation work and continue working hard in the field taking care of all the crops and finally it grow in a big tree. The 3rd generation are those that gain the most from the fruit as all the trees are fully grown. If they couldn't see how hard the first generation started and how hard the second generation took care of the trees and continue taking the crops for granted slowly all the trees died. And as the 4th generation come in, they are those that have nothing left and the cycle just start all over again. Yes, being disciples of God, if we didn't play the role in spreading the gospel, there would be no more christian in the future generation and all the knowledge would be lost. They would have to start all over again seeking God's word. 

"The Revival From The South"

 These five words really struck me. Imagine each and everyone of us being disciples of God represent a little flame. And as the journy spread from south australia towards the west across the sea to the rest of the world, i thought of all the other little flame that has already started work in all the other country. Isn't it magnificant to see all the flame combined to form a stronger and bigger flame and with stronger flame as the wind blow, it will spread fast. Ya eventually the world will become one big FLAME burning! Isn't it amazing seeing all the brothers and sisters burning brightly and glowing in the grace of God.  Romans 5:20 Where sin abounded, grace abounded much more.

Think think...

Have been tinking alot about all those stuff that happen recently. Can really feel the pain within me...I really miss my parents alot and the special someone there...Last night is so quiet, i am sitting on the dining chair and just can't stop myself but to tink tink tink...I just sat there tinking until 4am before i finally decided to sleep. Guess one of these days my mind will explode from tinking. Sometimes i just unconsciously started tinking abt many things, all those happy moment in the past, how playful i used to be, how i didn't treasure my dear parents in the past and worrying for my studies this semester...

The wonderful God...

It is really amazing to see how God work in our life. God have really been using me and changing me during all these time. Aiyaya! I asked myself  why am i writing out my testimony and all bad past in me. Ya, most people would not go around telling the other side of his/her past. Without knowing, i discover i have been writing it all out. Aiyaya! I guess God wanted me to write out all these out so that i can reflect on the changes in my life. He know i am a prideful person, maybe is a good way to make me less prideful. Most people would like to go about telling how well their life had been and all those wonderful stuff they have been doing. Ya i like to hear the wonderful stuff people share but i don't have any wonderful things to share coz i have never done any wonderful stuff. It's always God doing all those wonderful stuff in my life! Thank you God!! Ya, i used to be a person that doesn't like to go to church...Every saturday i'll feel sick about having to wake up early in the morning on sunday morning to go church. Sometimes i even skipped going to church. As i slowing grow here, i have really love to go to church now...I'll be looking forward going to church or even OCF. I guess OCF have really been a part of my life...I remember i don't like going OCF but now i really feel part of me is missing if i never go OCF. I guess one of the things that amazed me in OCF is seeing the strong bond in one another. Isn't it amazing to see the effort of praying for one another and how all those prayer is answered and praising God for it.

I always asked myself why do i come to adelaide...Many people have asked me why do i come here...my reply is always my parents send me here. I have really faced alot of problems coming here especially in my relationship..it really suffered alot...But i have learn to pray and depend on God alot. Prayer have become part of my life too! I know i am not good at praying cause my prayer is always short short one...I guess a prayer is still a prayer ya! I guess God have a purpose for all these. I have lost some happiness in my life but i have gain something too..I am beginning to feel the love from my parents! I am really blessed by God for giving me such a wonderful parents. I can still remember during mooncake festival they send me a simply sms in the morning wishing me "happy mooncake festival!", followed by "please buy mooncake to eat if you find one here". Aiyaya they even put a please in front. Really miss my dear parents alot!!

Yes, back from practical! Finally completed the power supply. Can't believe staying back till 7.30pm every thursday just to finish one simple power supply. Feeling abit stupid now . Yes recently hadn't been using my brain much.

My parents

Yes, called my parents yesterday. Aiya...the first thing they asked me is whether i have enough money here. They started worrying for me here, asking me to take gd care and see doctor if i am sick and remember to switch on the light (becoz of my sister incident). Ya feeling bad...shd have called them more often. My mum is a housewife, can understand being at home all the time and worrying for us overseas. Feeeel so so bad now, thinking of all the bad things i used to do. Still can clear remember how i run away from home coz my parents dun allow me to go out as i'll be going to taiwan for holiday soon. And they took the initiative to call me and ask me to go back to renewed my international passport. Aiya...terrible me at that time. Really can feel the aching of my parents heart and they fall sick frequently because of me.

I'll share abit of my past. The environment that i grew up in are pretty different from most of the people. I grow up in a pretty messy environment having alot of frens in secret society around me, even the so called "big head" in my area. They always have a parang or knifes in their bag. Mum always worried for me coz she knows the frens i am mixing. They ask me out for a game of basketball or just hanging around the nearby coffeeshop. She'll be so worried each time i went out after school or play basketball in my neighbourhood. I would left telling her not to worry. She would call me frequently and ask my dad to come pick me.

Nearly got involved in secret society if not for my mum love. I know i'll break her heart pretty badly. The environment makes me pretty cold-blooded at that time. I guess during that time my life is just too happening to even think about dying if a fight took place.That's the terrible me in the past!! Ya all these stuff keep recalling in my mind once in awhile making me feel guilty.

Till now my parents still worry for us. aiyaaaa...i tried asking them to learn something or take a tour but they would tell me old le do all these stuff for what!?!?. Always left me speachless when they reply this. I guess the biggest joy for them is to see their children safe and healthly.

Life just goes on...

I am beginning to feel the quietness and emptyness of the house. Life just went by day by day without me even knowing. Without the motivation to study, my studies have been deteriorating recently. Guess i really have to burn midnight oil till exam is over. Can't let my parents down...juz can't. I am not wasting their money to repeat the overcharged subjects, that's daylight robbery man!. Soon i'll be doing work experience...praying hard to get a work that is to my liking. I know myself i wouldn't be bothered to do anything which i am not interested in.

Ya recently have been taking a walk around cooling myself and relaxing. Ya have been exercising alot too! On tuesday, went over to one of our coursemate apartment (uni house)with 4 of my other coursemates. Chit chatting there and teaching my fren how to play DOTA! Met a crazy fellow who none of us know. He just sit among us the whole time when we are there, listening to our conversation. Then he started to do some kicking and boxing. People who really knows martial arts don't show off his stuff. I can't be bothered about him and continue chattiing with my frens...Then the fellow suddenly come up to me and told me "i see you are good in games but you may not necessary win in a fight wif me". I hadn't been in a good mood recently and that really piss me off man! My fren told me my expression was pretty scary especially my eyes. Haven really seen my own expression before. I guess that pretty frighten him and he started changing his topic, introducing himself , asking where are we from all those friendly questions...Anyway, he is one stupid guy which spark the fire inside me asking for a beating. I won't screw myself again like last time becoz of him.

That dig down to a little of my history last time( i won't discuss) which i finally understand the reason of fighting and which makes me made a promise to myself to fight for that reason. Yes! we definitely won't gain anything by just fighting for our sake. But to fight to protect people you treasure, that's where you gain something and which give you the strength, Yes! even it means throwing away your life, it's something you'll never regret!. Ever since then this reason stopped me from making unnecessary fights. Remember this well guys!

Life is too fragile, don't!! throw it away unnecessary!

Past few days peacefully went by...feeling much much better and appetite coming back. It's also time to start mugging!